I’ll admit, it was hard to find a proper way to explain this poem. I’d found motivation to write this when writing about a wildhearted character who doesn’t necessarily have a story yet. When writing this girl, I realized that I can connect with her in this wildhearted way, and it brought me back to a past relationship when I almost felt like I had a leash I knew I could break but didn’t. The last two lines in this poem are from a piece of dialogue about my character, and I really connected with it. This character is a branch of myself I wish I could be in another life, so I wrote this motivated by her and inspired by a heavy time in my life.
It’s not your fault I left.
It’s not your fault that
we loved,
we laughed,
we lived,
was actually:
We loved each other,
we laughed alone,
we lived in one another.
I love everyone.
I laugh with everyone.
I don’t live a lonely life.
I became we.
We are loving.
We are laughing.
We are living.
We, we, we.
When I finally realized
we should be I
and you should be
someone I love with,
someone I laugh with,
someone I live with,
not the
only one I love with,
only one I laugh with,
only one I live with.
I was always destined for adventure.
It’s not your fault I left,
it’s your fault I didn’t say goodbye.
