One of the many purposes of art is to evoke emotion, promote creation in return, and to complete the loop of consumption. Halsey’s song ‘Heaven in Hiding’ off her new album hopeless fountain kingdom brought up the dichotomy of power and vulnerability that I feel is one of my most instinctive and unrefined drives.
I can put on a show
You don’t make me feel invincible.
People don’t make me feel invincible.
People make me feel fragile.
And I don’t like feeling fragile.
Fragility is too complicated and requires far too much care
At least more than I’m willing to admit I can afford to give.
I can put on a show
I’m naked in your presence. My clothes are on.
My fingers flicker and my voice wavers.
Your nails are digging into your palm. Your knuckles are white.
Time is abstract and I wish I had no understanding of it
The bass line of my heart rises in a crescendo
I can put on a show
I put an arm around you
I think about what I could say to you without telling a lie
You hold on to me tighter
And I keep quiet
I wouldn’t do anything for you.
I can put on a show
I didn’t learn that lesson in your living room
Instead it stays with me
Everytime I see that shopping list in your distinctive type
Or cycle past that picture perfect canal
I feel something
Not missing
But close.
