I am a hair dying fanatic. I’ve had pastel blues and pinks which inevitably turn into greens, yellows, and oranges. I’ve had black hair and brown hair and blonde hair. So, of course, my hair got fried. I am also unreasonably spontaneous when it come to my hair. So, when I got the idea to buzz it all off, I couldn’t wait.
Although I was incredibly excited, I was also nervous for such a drastic change. After consulting with friends and family, I had essentially been talked down to just getting a pixie cut. This was my biggest mistake. I allowed my fears of the buzz cut to get in the way. I walked into my appointment, still very excited, and showed the stylist countless pictures of the short, spunky style I envisioned. Once I felt she understood, my hair dresser made the first (and biggest) cut off of my hair. She spent what felt like hour perfecting the layers and lines of my new hair-do. Then, it was time, the big reveal. My heart was racing and as she turned the chair slowly to face the enormous mirror, my heart stopped. I hated it.
Of course I played the insanely happy and thankful role of someone who just chopped off all her hair, but inside, I was disappointed and frustrated. I felt like a completely different person and I felt like I lost the ability to look feminine. My friends assured me it looked amazing and told me I had nothing to worry about, but I couldn’t shake the feeling that it wasn’t right for me.
Looking back, I know I should have fully committed to the style I knew I wanted and just completely buzzed my head. I also should have appreciated the pixie cut while I had it and, instead of immediately focusing on growing it out, I should have embraced it and perfected my pixie into a style that felt more like me.
To anyone considering making the cut, I would encourage everyone to do it and find their true selves in the haircut you get. Don’t let other people’s ideal pixie shape your own and, even if you want your long hair back the second you cut it off, accept it and make it your own. Don’t let your hair wear you. You should be the one wearing (and rocking) your hair.
